Holly: Bringing Home Baby
Brett, my daughter, turned 13 months old earlier this week. It is so hard to believe that time has flown by so quickly. When people tell you that time flies- believe them! For all you preggers out there- I hated being pregnant. I’m serious. I worked 50-60 hours per week and I found the the sickness, the constant peeing, the tiredness and the sore feet to be quite a nuisance. How was I to keep up with all of the men that I worked with feeling this way?
When I was pregnant, being the type-A personality that I am, I worked out a complete re-entry plan for coming back to work after the baby was born. It was a page long! I sat down with my boss (bless his heart for going through this with me) and explained to him things such as that I would need breaks at certain points during the day to pump, since I would be breastfeeding my baby. Wow, did I really tell him that?Well, once Brett was born I got home and I still felt that way! Yep, waking up every two hours to breastfeed, sitting on the couch breastfeeding, etc was really not something that I found a lot of pleasure in. In fact, I felt quite trapped. I literally sat in the corner of my couch watching tv and breastfeeding all darn day! I cried- a lot. I never wanted people to see me cry though because I didn’t want to seem week, but boy did I cry! TV made me cry, books made me cry, crying made me cry. I just wanted to get out of the house! But, the doctor gave me old ‘if your baby gets a temperature of over 100.4 in the first 30 days she will be hospitalized for 2 days so just stay home for a month.’ So, home I sat.
I quickly realized that I had the baby blues. In fact, I would say to my husband through my tears, “why did we bring a child into this world? Our lives will never be the same. I want our old life back!” My husband would look on the internet and in books and ask me questions like, “you don’t think you will hurt her, do you?” No, I never had thoughts of harm in my head.
I was happy to read that this is actually very common in new moms. In fact, 60-80% of new moms get the baby blues. I magically felt happier (but still not quite content) once Brett was two weeks old and I feel very grateful it didn’t last longer than that.
Here is a great article about the baby blues and postpartum depression. Check it out if you are feeling depressed or are just curious. http://familydoctor.org/online/famdocen/home/women/pregnancy/ppd/general/379.html