Holly: First Night Away from Baby
I am heading to a bachelorette party this weekend and will be spending a night away from my daughter. I am not at all concerned about this and am looking forward to a day and evening with my girlfriends.
This is much different than the first time I left her overnight. I was going on a girls weekend to La Jolla (about 65 miles south of where I live) with my best girlfriends that I always did an annual trip with: I wasn’t about to miss it. My daughter was seven months old and I had never been away from her for more than a few hours. With their consent I decided that I would bring her with me for the first day and night and then my husband would come pick her up the next afternoon and I would spend the second evening without her.
I was still breastfeeding at this time and I wasn’t quite sure how it was going to work out. I was already struggling with milk production at the time and was taking Fenugreek. The first night I hardly slept because I had Brett sleeping in bed with me and I kept thinking how great the next night would be…
My husband came down to get her around 3pm on Saturday. As he was loading her into the car I started crying! I cried as they drove off and I literally cried for about 10 minutes! My friends helped calm me down and I enjoyed the rest of the afternoon. I pumped every 3 hours. We went out for dinner that night and I had a great time. I ended up going home earlier than some of the others because I had to pump. I didn’t sleep that great because I was worried about how she was sleeping. My husband was sweet and texted me with updates. She was already sleeping through the night at that point and, amazingly enough (at least to me at the time) she slept through while I was gone.
I woke up the next morning; said good morning to everyone grabbed a bagel and immediately headed home. I couldn’t stand to be away from her any longer. When she saw me she kept touching my face, as if she was thinking, “mom, is that you?” It was really sweet.
I learned that she did just fine without me. In fact, she did better than I did! Since then, I have left her overnight five nights. I feel completely comfortable leaving her with my parents or my husband.
As I get ready to pack up for the bachelorette party this weekend I can look forward to it without worry. I know that I will miss her, and she will miss me, but we will both survive the time away from each other. Besides, it is a much-needed break for mommy!